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Lilith — 6 years ago(July 10, 2019 10:36 PM)
Monicah
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I really do understand. I feel like an idiot about how I act sometimes on here
It's okay Monicah. I know some folks may not understand. But you know that I do.
We all develop our own versions of "coping mechanisms," especially when it comes to attachment issues, and sometimes they're healthy, sometimes they're not. But most often, they're different to what "normies" develop who didn't go through the childhood stuff we did.
You do you, and the pieces will fall into place. Your friends will always be there no matter the highs or the lows.
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Lilith — 6 years ago(July 11, 2019 01:51 AM)
Monicah
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I always tell myself I need to stop acting the way I do on here and for guys in general and I never actually stop. And I don’t know because I don’t know if it’s unhealthy to be this way or not
No one can tell you one way or another because you do you, and the time will come when suddenly things sort of sink in and you'll know when, how, and what to do or not do.
I think when we're trying to make up for years of being invalidated and dismissed, we try all sorts of things (until we find the right groove for us) to get the attention that we didn't get growing up, and sometimes that means extremes (we can either sort of disappear into ourselves or get excessively…outgoing in other ways). Our journeys are our own.
The fact that you're actually cognizant now of what was going on is a huge, huge wonderful thing. It took me many years (ie: most of my life) to get the awareness I've seen you develop in just a few years. I hope you give yourself some credit.
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Twizlee — 6 years ago(July 08, 2019 07:24 PM)
They busted her ass for reading a book. Her parents were the complete opposite when it came to her sister though. They let her do whatever she wanted. I get that they didn't want her trying to become a witch or whatever LOL but she wasn't like that at all.. she just wanted to read them because all of her friends were.
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azn_2 — 6 years ago(July 08, 2019 04:39 PM)
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Lilith — 6 years ago(July 08, 2019 06:22 PM)
Yep, I agree.
There was the whole Satanic Panic in the 90's started by crazy and overzealous "Christians" who were so intent on pushing a very warped agenda on everyone. A lot of innocent people suffered because of that, and still do.
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Alpha Raven Andromeda — 6 years ago(July 08, 2019 06:48 PM)
Honestly, how you are right now is the main reason I didn't feel my prayer would reach you and I was surprised you agreed to having me pray for you.
I should have done it anyway. Maybe if I had, things would have gotten a little better for you. I'm sorry I let you down.
