Dreams of Life thru a Nursing Home
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️ Christina 1986-05-20 
— 2 weeks ago(March 13, 2026 07:00 AM)I’m in my third of what will be 4 Airbnb rental homes.
Since after my parents died, my aunt told me to go bankrupt when I didn’t know how to afford food on this Social Security of about $2000 a month, it was hard for me to get an apartment so much so I’m gonna have to get a budget apartment which might be nifty, but with other people getting budget apartments. I think I’ll be able to get other apartments maybe mostly it’ll be different after I pay off the bankruptcy maybe in a year. I heard bankruptcy other things disappear maybe after like six years. I think it’s different and different things. So what I did was, I took out loans when something happened and just tried to pay it off. It doesn’t seem to work well on Social Security especially without savings. I guess it’s just too bad. I always felt interrupted in my room. They always these noises from outside. I couldn’t even wind down when I got home.
½ S/N Asian (40%+ Chinese) ½ Norwegian/Danish-Irish Swiss (Amish/PA) German French Dutch? French+Dutch Celtic-Irish English-Irish?
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Lilith — 2 weeks ago(March 13, 2026 07:08 AM)
If you worked with a social worker, they might be able to help you get on Section-8 housing. It would be something steady. Why do you keep moving so frequently?
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️ Christina 1986-05-20 — 2 weeks ago(March 13, 2026 07:26 AM)
I had to move from the group homes. I went to when my parents died to an apartment and then lived in two nursing homes and then lived into Extended Stay America hotels in this area and now I’m in my third of what will probably be four airbnb rental homes. I was just gonna stay in that apartment and even move to one with one or two bedrooms there. I was kicked out because the leak that they just fixed came back and I didn’t report it right away. I tried to explain why, but I guess they just saw through me. I wasn’t officially evicted. I was so upset about the bankruptcy and couldn’t get it together. I came back and was gonna work. I was at home cooking for a while. The male meal kits weren’t working out well. I got depressed on something I ate before. Like if something doesn’t work out when I eat on like seven or $800 a month it doesn’t really work out well. I tried to ask people for help cooking and like no one knows. I know my aunt seem to suggest but not expressed that she was sensitive to what I ate, but maybe she kind of glassed over that fact. I just don’t like how she treated me like mad like maybe I was a bad person like maybe I’ll never be someone because of my race being not so good. Like or maybe I just wouldn’t get what I wanted with my race. Like maybe I wasn’t more like a swede or Norwegian from the Asian. Like I still wanted the southern European. Everyone made me feel guilty about different things like how I wanted to be a movie star and feel like a lady from 1961.
½ S/N Asian (40%+ Chinese) ½ Norwegian/Danish-Irish Swiss (Amish/PA) German French Dutch? French+Dutch Celtic-Irish English-Irish?..? -
Lilith — 2 weeks ago(March 13, 2026 11:25 AM)
Neither of your aunts care about your "racial" issues; only you do.
They are quite likely more concerned with how you are eating based on your health, like your diabetes, high cholesterol, high blood pressure, and your heart. Perhaps Barb and/or Joni can give you some ideas for recipes that are healthy for you given your health conditions.
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️ Christina 1986-05-20 — 2 weeks ago(March 13, 2026 04:32 PM)
Yeah, a lot of people could’ve gotten diabetes from childhood too. I just feel like people are shouting at us telling us we don’t have a shot at life. And to be honest, I didn’t really get diabetes from my own life choices. It was even something that happened at the spur of the moment. So basically the only thing I found with diabetes is if I can’t reverse it or something or do a whole lot of exercise I can’t like eat extra candy and dessert, etc. Lots and lots of bread. But I can eat a normal amount of anything. It’s just that other people are choosing not to be healthy in their lifestyle. Like I know the yo-yo dieting so far. I mean it’s not that much of a mystery. I mean some people switch to other cuisines or complain about the pasta. Their parents fed them. Most people don’t talk about their taste, though. Like I had a lot of things like like say the idea of making snacks out of beans with just a little of something sweet. I guess that sounds kind of little Eastern. Probably a really good practice. Like I like the chocolate at Whole Foods. It was like organic granola bars with the gooey stuff in the middle. I like things like shakes made of like soy milk or almond. I don’t really like the caffeine and coffee at Starbucks if you can get decaf. I think the decaf might have a little bit it might be negligible for most people. I was kind of like the idea of eating those in bulk. But I always had the idea I wanted to go out and make like Thanksgiving most days or a lot of days. People say it’s fattening but like I guess it’s not the piles of vegetables. I mean, you could have corn. You could have salad with it. You can add things. Anyway, basically I’d like that. I’ve been trying. But like seven or $800 a month is looking kind of tight. I lost like $400.0 3 months in a row one from losing Medicaid.
½ S/N Asian (40%+ Chinese) ½ Norwegian/Danish-Irish Swiss (Amish/PA) German French Dutch? French+Dutch Celtic-Irish English-Irish?..? -
️ Christina 1986-05-20 — 2 weeks ago(March 13, 2026 07:31 AM)
You’re right it’s not just for people born in the 1970s and 1980s, the 70s and 80s, it’s for people whose age is more like in their 70s and 80s or maybe mostly 90s.
½ S/N Asian (40%+ Chinese) ½ Norwegian/Danish-Irish Swiss (Amish/PA) German French Dutch? French+Dutch Celtic-Irish English-Irish?..?