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Lilith — 6 years ago(July 09, 2019 09:41 PM)
Yes. It made me sick to my stomach to watch how those kids were treated and what they went through. It was also heartbreaking that the reporter almost didn't follow through with helping that gay boy, to help him escape and expose this disgusting abuse of so-called "religion." This is the cult-stuff that I have serious objections to, when the name of God is used as a way to manipulate.
I have nothing but extremely positive experiences with the Catholic church, and it has always brought me feelings of comfort. When I see this, it angers me beyond belief.
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Lilith — 6 years ago(July 09, 2019 09:47 PM)
The gay boy? I also felt bad for the one with the amputated leg.
The girl who had to ask permission to use a fork or knife while eating who was interviewed at the end saying it saved her life?
This is where I feel conflicted because she does seem a lot calmer in that "after" interview. BUT,….but,…I think the means do NOT justify the ends, and that she should have been able to get help without being punished the way she (and all those kids) were.
It was appalling to watch what they did. I also got the impression that those "camp counselors" or whatever were power-hungry. Majorly manipulative and you could almost see their eyes twinkle when they could inflict pain on those children.
Aaaghh!
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Lilith — 6 years ago(July 10, 2019 06:02 PM)
That's why I was so aggressive with, and towards, you when I saw you posting. It was so familiar, and I saw you going down the same rabbit hole I went down, and so desperately wanted to just pull you out.
I understand a lot of what you went through, and I also can relate to how that affects people like us who've been through some of these things. I recognize it. I'm just very sorry that I wasn't more gentle with engaging you back then.
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Lilith — 6 years ago(July 10, 2019 10:36 PM)
Monicah
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I really do understand. I feel like an idiot about how I act sometimes on here
It's okay Monicah. I know some folks may not understand. But you know that I do.
We all develop our own versions of "coping mechanisms," especially when it comes to attachment issues, and sometimes they're healthy, sometimes they're not. But most often, they're different to what "normies" develop who didn't go through the childhood stuff we did.
You do you, and the pieces will fall into place. Your friends will always be there no matter the highs or the lows.
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Lilith — 6 years ago(July 11, 2019 01:51 AM)
Monicah
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I always tell myself I need to stop acting the way I do on here and for guys in general and I never actually stop. And I don’t know because I don’t know if it’s unhealthy to be this way or not
No one can tell you one way or another because you do you, and the time will come when suddenly things sort of sink in and you'll know when, how, and what to do or not do.
I think when we're trying to make up for years of being invalidated and dismissed, we try all sorts of things (until we find the right groove for us) to get the attention that we didn't get growing up, and sometimes that means extremes (we can either sort of disappear into ourselves or get excessively…outgoing in other ways). Our journeys are our own.
The fact that you're actually cognizant now of what was going on is a huge, huge wonderful thing. It took me many years (ie: most of my life) to get the awareness I've seen you develop in just a few years. I hope you give yourself some credit.
"Your emotional state is not my responsibility." – Warren Smith