Choosing to do heroin…
-
sjmedrano — 11 years ago(April 19, 2014 04:08 PM)
That makes sense. I had friends that would do hard core drugs and I saw how it affected them and didn't want any part of tht. Pain pills never wanted of tht either plus I'm allergic to chalky pills. The only thing I will take is Ibuprofen. I'm glad I do have a fear of drugs and don't want to go down that role but I do understand why some people turn to drugs to deal with life and then it becomes a way frm not being sick due from the withdrawals. I've heard people doing heroin is like chasing the dragon looking for that first experience with the drug and you will never experience. Its horrible and it doesnt help when Doctors hand out these pills like candy. I just wish PHS could of beaten this.
-
SweetLadyH — 11 years ago(July 22, 2014 05:46 PM)
Suza, thank you for sharing your story. Many people don't know what it's like to love with addiction and when you come from a "perfect" life it seems it's even more difficult for people to understand. I admire your strength to get clean and your courage to unashamedly tell your story.
Not sure if you'd be interested, but I would love to talk with you indepth as well as share my story with you. If that's something you'd be interested in, send me a PM on here. If not, I totally understand.
Thank you again for sharing. I hope you're life now is filled with happiness and fulfillment.
namaste -
Sonfollower — 12 years ago(February 19, 2014 05:08 PM)
Ironman54,
Man, you put down on paper everything I wanted to say and more, but sometimes it is hard to express myself! You must be a writer with your ability, to spell it out so clearly, you are amazing!
Thank you for posting, it made me cry, really! I have been on anti-depressants for so many years, I can't count,I know exactly what you are saying is so damned true! I heard someone say that Heroin addicts are always chasing that first feeling from the drug. Yes, and I know the feeling from Demerol in the ER. I always said, now I know why it is easy to become an addict, what a feeling!
I just want to thank you for posting and I love the way you ended itthe devil! You definitely explained and answered many questions for myself and others! Bless You! -
Sonfollower — 12 years ago(February 19, 2014 02:47 PM)
It's the same thing with Alcohol, take one drink..then another.Anything can be addictive, sugar? We all have our addictions in one way or another, I know what you are saying. Did you know that Cigarettes are harder to kick than Heroin! And look how many people die from Cigarettes, from one thing to the other. We are at a war against good and evil, everyday! We have to fight against the things of the flesh all the time. That is why we need to be educated about these things, and know what we are dealing with. Do we want to take a chance and stick a needle in our arm (and not even know for sure what is in the drug)or smoke, drink for years.and thenLet's face it, the flesh is weak, very weak!!!
-
SweetLadyH — 11 years ago(July 22, 2014 05:54 PM)
I'm sure you've gotten more than enough answers regarding your question, so I'll attempt to be brief.
As a former drug addict I can vouch for many things people have said here: sometimes it's to escape life (and although his life seems like there would be nothing to want to escape from, you never know the demons inside someone's head Sometimes the happiest people are the saddest inside), sometimes it's an opportunity handed to you at a party (peer pressure at any age is hard, especially when you're already under the influence of other substances), sometimes you're just looking for the next fix because your current drug isn't doing it for you anymore.
At any rate, I can tell you that no matter how bad something is for you, people still do it - alcohol, tobacco, unprotected sex, fast food. It doesn't matter, living in an age of instant gratification and the idea that the future isn't your concern at the moment leads many of us to make choices that we shouldn't.
Finally in specific regards to heroin: (and I'm not sure if I can say this on here so I hope I don't get flagged) imagine the best orgasm you have ever had in your entire life, now imagine that times 10. That's just the tip of the iceberg of how heroin makes you feel. That's pretty tempting no matter how bad for you it is.
Sorry for my long, rambling post. I hope you never have to experience the horrors of drug use - contrary to what many have said, it does not equate to "life experience" and certainly doesn't make you a better person because you've done things. Be who you are, be proud of it, and always find ways to improve upon yourself to make your life more fulfilling.
Namaste. -
jacc1515 — 11 years ago(July 23, 2014 10:13 AM)
As someone had mentioned before, the first time you do heroin, you feel this perfect, beautiful euphoria. Something you have never felt before. I would like to compare it to falling in love with someone, but it is different. No matter what horrible thing(s) might be going on in your life, it doesn't matter. The high from heroin makes everything feel and seem perfect, wondeful and beautiful.
You feel like a god.
Invincible.
And you don't get addicted right away. You can go for a while before having to take some more. Days, weeks, months maybe even years. You think to yourself "WTF are all these people bad mouthing heroin for? It made me feel unreal happy and I don't crave it at all and it didn't cause me to lose my job, home, friends or freedom. It didn't turn me into some bum-junkie I see downtown begging for my loose change"
Then you take your 2nd hitthen your thirdthen fourth, fifth, sixth, seventh, eighth, etc.
Now each time you take it, the high is getting weaker and weaker. You have to take more and more to achieve the same high you were getting in the past. That means more and more $$.
And now you can't go weeks or days inbetween hits. It gets where you are doing heroin non-stop, all the time. And if you do stop taking heroin suddenly these lovely things called "withdrawals" come into your life
Non-stop vomiting, diarhea, urinating, body aches, body twitching, can't sleep, irritable. You think and feel like you are dying.
And those are just the physical symptoms. The mental symptoms are far worse. You think about heroin more than a 14 year-old boy thinks about sex and THAT IS A LOT!
You can try to take over-the-counter medicines to treat the symptoms, but they don't really work. If you are lucky you can procure7ec some xanax or ativan(benzodiazepines) to help, but those are also narcotics and cost a lot of $ and are addictive in their own right. Plus if you withdraw from benzos you can die from seizures.
At this point you care more about getting more heroin than anything else in your life. It has become more important than anything. Even food. If given the choice of starving and getting more dope or spending $ on food. You will choose starving each and everytime.
Everyone thinks they will be the one that doesn't get addicted and will be strong and beat it, but I have yet to meet anyone who has actually done this (myself included- even though I was addicted to pain pills like opana and oxycontin and not heroin though they are both the same thing except heroin is much cheaper)
Sounds glamarous right? My advice is stay away from it. If you have to get high then stick to weed and maybe exctasy. Don't even take weaker opiates like vicodin or lortabs.
The beep has got to go. Go! The beep gots to go! -James Franco -
Danasaur24 — 11 years ago(August 18, 2014 09:18 AM)
A lot of people become addicted to heroin by beginning with recreationally taking painkillers (Oxycontin, Loratabs, etc). Painkillers are a form of synthetic heroin and I guess because they're pills, some people don't think it's wrong to take them for fun. Well overtime, those pills become expensive, like $20 a pill. So they find someone with bags of heroin much cheaper and to save money, they start using that. Sometimes though, the painkillers have been prescribed by a doctor whether it be because of a car accident or whatever.
I suggest we learn to love ourselves before it's made illegal. -
franzkabuki — 11 years ago(August 20, 2014 11:58 PM)
For one thing, it does tend to have this dangerous air to it that's kinda seductive to many who might want to try and dance with the devil just once. And there are always moments of weakness, when the curiosity and the promise of a great high might get the better of you.
"facts are stupid things" - Ronald Reagan -
Danimal_77 — 11 years ago(September 18, 2014 01:30 AM)
Only if you're the type of personality that is susceptible to it. The majority of people have absolutely no interest in doing drugs. It's just not appealing in any shape or form. It just lends to no form of curiosity whatsoever.